5.21.2009

Shocked... Prayers Needed!

I am not quite sure where to begin, but lets just say a lot has changed and the pumpkins and I need your prayers. The ultrasound was amazing! The pumpkins are perfect, beautiful and the loves of my life. I couldn't believe how well everything was going and what amazing pictures we were getting. That hour and a half led to two large shocks.

Shock #1: We are having TWO BOYS! No doubt about it, baby B is a BOY 100% boy!

Shock #2: Came at the very end of my appointment when my cervix length was checked. We look for around a two or greater. A month ago it was at a 3.9. Yesterday it was a .59. My heart sank, my dreams flashed before my eyes and the tears started to flow. I knew from that moment that my pregnancy was high risk and things were not good. The doctor is a specialist and is very experienced. We were sent straight to Labor and Delivery where I was monitored for contractions, thanks goodness I was having none. It is believed to be an incompetent cervix, which I hear is quite common in a multiple pregnancy. I was taken to surgery where a cerclage (cervix was sewn shut) was placed and we now pray for time. Time for those babies to stay put and the cervix to stay closed. It seems we caught it just in time as by the time I went in for surgery it was .50.

The surgery was longer than expected and scared the heck out of Gabe. I am not sure what I feel anymore. I went from feeling confident that we will have babies to a place where the black cloud sits above my head. We strive for six more weeks, but would love to get 1o more. Please please pray that the cervix stays closed and this cerclage does the trick.

I am now off work, that was a shock in itself. I thought at first it was temporary, but nope... she says the pregnancy and keeping these babies safe is top priority and she is RIGHT. I am disappointed and scared. I blame myself and fear for my babies lives. I can't imagine losing them, so I won't! I HAVE TO STAY HOPEFUL and pray that this cerclage works its magic. I need your girls now more than ever.

I have lots of time on my hands now so I may recap in detail and I do plan to post some of our amazing pictures.

Baby B who we believe may be called Aiden or Aydan... or Aidan ... hummm... help me out on that spelling, is our little trouble maker. He is the wiggler, the sports package hider, and the baby we caught kicking his little brother in the head.

Baby A is weighing in at 11 oz. and baby B is 12 oz. I was in awe of them, I will do what ever I need to do to keep them safe for as long as possible. It seems I now have some items to return and some baby registers to re-do. Something to keep me busy.

I am sure I will be posting again soon, don't have much else to do.

Happy Birthday to my MIL who is sleeping in the next room. She is here from Arizona and stayed with us all last night in the hospital. We had big plans to take her to Benihana for her Birthday to celebrate after our appointment. Rain check! Love you Mima, and the boys thank you for helping their Mama.

19 comments:

Hernandez Clan said...

We love you guys!! We will be thinking only good thoughts. I like Ayden...Hehe.

G & H said...

You bet we will be praying! I was just thinking of all the twin mommmies out there so funny you posted this today...but know you are in our prayers and praise God they found it all when they did! LOts of rest and prayers and your handsome little boys ( CONGRATS!!!) can stay nice and warm inside mommy's tummy for a while longer! Your awesome God bless!

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

oh my goodness! two boys!?! that is quite the shock! i like the spelling aiden, since you asked. :)

you can cook those little boys longer, i know it. rest, relax, shop online for lots of blue, read, and eat to make them bigger!!

thinking of you often, erin

Anonymous said...

Sending you HUGE ~STAY PUT~ vibes, sweetie!!! How scary! I know you and the babies are going to do great. Hang in there!!!!!!

Andrea said...

Oh no! I really hope the cutelage (sp?) works and you are able to keep those boys cooking:) I'll be thinking about you and the little ones.

twondra said...

Oh, sweetie. I will definitely be thinking and praying for you. Wow. I'm so sorry. The babies will be okay, though. (((HUGS)))

Anonymous said...

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Boys are so exciting, fun and active.

Love,
Aunt Theresa

Christina said...

Thoughts and prayers with you and your little boys. Take care of yourself, if you need anything, to talk or whatever, know I'm here for you!! Take care of yourself and your LO's!!

Anonymous said...

Chi from the FF Oct group here ... sounds like a scary journey but it's a relief that you're in such good hands and that things are being addressed so quickly. Sending you and your boys the very best thoughts!

Ryan and Stuart said...

OMG Tiff!!!!! I am so sorry for this scare. Tons and tons of prayers for you and your little baby boys. The cerclage WILL work! Take it very, very easy. I know I live far away, but I will do ANYTHING to help you through this - just say the word and Evie and I will come clean your house for you, shop for you, take you to Dr's Appt, etc. I am SERIOUS! I am on maternity leave and can do it! (Ok, just realized I need to get off crutches first :-) But, only another week or so). I can help!

The Pifer's said...

Oh honey, I am most def. praying for you sweetie!!! Love ya!!!

Mimi said...

Always praying for you honey. Make sure you rest A LOT! Thinking of you!

Kami

Suzanne said...

OMG - I don't know how I missed this post. I'll be praying for you and the little ones!

Jen said...

First time at your blog-got here from hoping for our own peanut-but I just had to comment because the exact same thing happened to me. Incompetent cervix diagnosed at 18 week sono, hospitalized one week, home on bed rest until 22 weeks, then back to hospital for remainder of pregnancy. I made it to 34 WEEKS! You can do it with the right meds, good doctors, and strict bedrest. I just remember when I was at your point, I thought there was no way that I was going to make it to a good point for my boys. They are 19 months old now and are doing great. Please email me if I can be of any assistance-carlson803@sbcglobal.net. Best wishes and I will be checking back.

BB said...

Babies and the mommy in my prayers. Good luck! :)

Bobbi said...

I will be praying for you! I am an OB nurse and we do cerclages all the time, they usually work really well! Rest and keep doing great, you have made it to 20 wks you can make it at least 10 more!

Madsen Family said...

oh tiffany you will definitely be in our prayers. i am sure they will stay safe and sound in there! i love looking at your blog.

Anonymous said...

Moosmum from FF, just logged back on after a week away. Thoughts and prayers with you, it WILL be okay , and you will get your 10 more weeks, lots of positive thoughts and hugs your way,
Sarah
xxxxxxx

Polly Gamwich said...

Tiffany, I am so so sorry I didn't respond sooner - I haven't really been keeping up on blogs since we got our BFP, just to protect my heart and mind ... but I just saw in your recent post about a "cerclage" and was like HUH??!? ...

This must have been so scary! I'm so glad they caught it in time and that you were able to get the emergency cerclage in there and that your cervix has lengthened nicely.

It blows my mind that you could deliver in 6 weeks and more hopefully 10+ ... but 6 weeks? That's nuts!!!

DH and I will be praying for you Sweety,
Polly