5.24.2009

Birthday

Today is my birthday and while I must say that my emotional state is far better than last year (just 19 days after my miscarriage), it isn't what I had anticipated for today. This year I am so thankful to be pregnant and for our miracle boys, however I am finding myself depressed and scared. It is amazing how fast your life can change and once again I feel like I am on a roller coaster. All I can do is countdown the days and look at each day as one step towards the health of the boys.

I woke up this morning and immediately checked for both heart beats with the doppler. For some reason I really needed that reassurance this morning. The pumpkin miracles are doing just fine and for that I am blessed and will truly enjoy today. I have my wish from last year, now my wish for today is to hold onto these miracles long enough for them to make it into this world healthy.

8 comments:

The Pifer's said...

Happy Birthday Sweetie, I am praying for you and I can't imagine the fear you have, however have faith and try your best to enjoy your amazing pregnancy, God is so amazing and I truly believe he is going to take care of you!! Your always in my prayers!

Love-Hugs and Prayers :)
Tiff

jill said...

happy birthday! you and your miracles were on my mind during church this morning, so i prayed for you guys during the entire invitation time. lots of love from texas!

Ashley said...

Happy Birthday!!

Mimi said...

Happy Birthday sweetie!!!

I'm sorry you are scared and depressed. I wish I could make it better! I hope your day gets better!

Kami

Angelwingsbaby said...

happy birthday! ((hugs))

Hernandez Clan said...

Happy birthday hunny! We love you and wish you all the good luck in the world!!!

Ryan and Stuart said...

Listen to your Mommy boys - you stay in there and give her the best B'day present ever, ok? Hugs and prayers Tiff! Happy B'day.

twondra said...

Happy birthday sweetie! I'm definitely thinking of you and praying. (((HUGS))))