Birthday

Today is my birthday and while I must say that my emotional state is far better than last year (just 19 days after my miscarriage), it isn't what I had anticipated for today. This year I am so thankful to be pregnant and for our miracle boys, however I am finding myself depressed and scared. It is amazing how fast your life can change and once again I feel like I am on a roller coaster. All I can do is countdown the days and look at each day as one step towards the health of the boys.

I woke up this morning and immediately checked for both heart beats with the doppler. For some reason I really needed that reassurance this morning. The pumpkin miracles are doing just fine and for that I am blessed and will truly enjoy today. I have my wish from last year, now my wish for today is to hold onto these miracles long enough for them to make it into this world healthy.