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This is a post and video I have been dreaming of creating and posting for about a year now. On March 8, 2009 I blogged about the video I may some day create featuring our little pumpkins.

The day has finally come, and I couldn't be more thankful for where we are, and where we have been. I wouldn't change a thing, I'd walk right back through the rain, back to every broken heart on the day that it was breaking. I'd re-live all the years and be thankful for the tears, because it brought me here, to a love that I NEVER thought I'd get to get to.

I Miss It

Okay this may sound nuts so soon, but I miss being pregnant. I want to be pregnant again so very badly. Do I want another baby already? NO! But I want to be pregnant!

I loved being pregnant, and while I HATED bedrest, I loved my belly and feeling the boys move and minus the bedrest and my cervix, I had a super easy pregnancy. What does this mean? Why do I want to be pregnant so badly again? Maybe it's because I feel like I missed out on a lot of the fun stuff in my pregnancy, or maybe it's because for so many years it is ALL I ever wanted, and now I feel like that is just what I am supposed to want all the time.

I am even having a hard time putting my maternity clothes in our storage shed, and while I KNOW that we are not ready for another baby financially for another four years or so, I just can't stop thinking about it. Am I nuts? The answer is yes, but still I can't wait to be pregnant again and I can't stop thinking about our little frozen babies. Or maybe I am just dreading getting back in shape. Hehehe.

On another note, does anyone have any tips on how to get under my child's neck to stop smelling like sour milk? Seriously babies are supposed to smell all cute and sweet, not mine... he stinks! I give him a bath every other day and wipe him down after every meal and still he stinks a few hours after bath time. I am leaning towards baths every day for my messy eater, but I know that isn't good for his skin. Any thoughts?

I Just Can't Get Enough of These Boys

Time, time is hard to come by these days.  I rarely have time to actually get on a computer, but I do check in on you all from my phone, but don't leave comments.  

I got a shot in my right wrist yesterday.  So far it feels worse instead of better.  The doctor said it was one of the worst cases he had seen.  Nice, leave it to me.  He was surprised I didn't come to see him sooner.  I'm hoping the shot does the trick.

In baby news, I put shoes on the boys and Aaden has learned that when he cries, I will pick him up, so he's trying that often.  They are changing so much, I can hardly recognize them myself.

Happy Halloween

Week 6

We are growing fast

We are extra cute

We love to cuddle

We sleep in our cribs now, which gives everyone a lot more sleep

We take naps with Daddy

We play with Grammy

We make faces

Oh and we're cute

We can hold our heads up well

We saw Daddy's band play

We met Seattle Seahawks player Mike Gibson

We fall asleep on our Brother

We are into our toys

We get dressed in silly warm clothes

We can wear our outfits from Evie & Ryan

We are very alert 

We smile

We pose for the camera

We make cute faces

We smile some more

We love our Mommy

We wear jeans and overalls

We kiss and love our Mommy

And our Mommy loves us

We go out to lunch, and we love our Mommy

We check out our Papa Wayne

We say hello while being baby-sat by Grammy and Papa Wayne

We get double feed

Things are Brighter

As you can see, things are brighter around our house.  Both boys are doing MUCH better.  However, I have NO idea what helped or what is/was wrong.  It could be:

- The new Gentlease formula (only 1/5 dairy formula) *I discovered yesterday that Wal-Mart makes it in generic.

- The big HUGE poop Noah took

- The more burps we have been giving during feedings (every ounce, that is 5 times a bottle)

- The gas drops given and the pass passed

Whatever it is, it is helping a lot and most of the Noah grunts are completely gone.  So, I have decided to stick with all those things for the next few days and see how it goes.  Since the boys were so happy last night, I decided to have a little photo shoot while Gabe was practicing with his band.  Enjoy, and happy Wednesday!  Today is Wednesday the 21st, that means two months from today will be my first day back at work, dreading leaving the boys already. *Tear, tear*

Acid Reflux?

So I talked to the doctor and now I am even more confused than before. She was quick to jump to acid reflux and want to prescribe drugs. My gut just wasn't feeling that yet mainly because he doesn't have a lot of the symptoms of Reflux. Neither of the boys spits up, not to say they NEVER have, or to say that you HAVE to spit up to have reflux, but I just wasn't ready for drugs until I know that is what he/they need. Yup, THEY Aaden is now starting to show some odd symptoms too. Different that Noah, in fact Aaden's seem more Reflux than Noah's. Wet hiccups and burps and fussiness after eating. Noah's are groaning and arching back in pain. So stinking confused!

So since I wasn't quick to jump on the Reflux med wagon we opted for a formula switch up. Even if it is reflux a formula switch up could help. So Noah is now on Enfamil Gentlease and more breastmilk than before (sorry Aaden for taking away some of your breastmilk.) So now we wait and will check back in with the Pediatrician on Thursday, if the switch up didn't help we will be on to reflux meds. Poor Noah (and Mommy) slept horrible last night. Every three to four minutes he would let out a scream, tense up, and arch his back. I finally took him into bed with me for an hour, hoping it would help, but it didn't. My heart broke each time I felt him and his belly muscles tense up. I am noticing some relief while they are upright. Right now he is in a swing and it seems to be helping a tiny tiny bit, just a little (I think that is a sign of reflux). ANY thoughts you have would be greatly appreciated.

Oh and as for the no pooping for four days, she wasn't worried about it. She said some babies just go longer than others and as long as the stool he did have was loose than it is fine. Huummm? Oh and for the first time ever Aaden has now went more than 24 hours without pooping? Ya know... that makes me question a dairy irritation.

My First Day As A Stay At Home Mom

Update: I guess I should have mentioned that I called the Pediatrician's office first thing this morning when they opened (at 9 a.m.), and I am still waiting for a call back.

Yes, that's right... today is my first official day. A day that I have only dreamed of. Gabe went back to work this morning and so far so good. I slept until 9 a.m. He got up at 6 a.m. and both boys were fussing so he gave them bottles and put them in their cribs before he left for work, wow I sleep so much better when they are in their cribs. Starting to make me wonder if we should put them in their cribs at night time too.

I need help, I think we may have a tummy issue with Noah. We finally got a poop out of him last night, it had been since Thursday. Although it was diarrhea when he finally went. The worst part is the pain it seems he is in. Grunting, groaning, and the tightest tummy muscles I have ever felt. He arches his back sometimes and just squeals. You can tell he is trying to push and most of the time he just passes gas. I thought it would get better after he pooped, but nope last night it was pretty bad. At 3 a.m. he did this for about a half an hour until he finally felt some relief. Yesterday and last night we tried the gas drops, but they didn't seem to help. We also tried rubbing his belly, warm blankets on his belly, and moving his legs around. Right now he is eating 1/2 breast milk and 1/2 milk based formula. (I can no longer keep up with the breastmilk demand fully with these big eaters.) It seems to mainly bother him at night and after feeding, but does happen at other times too. What are your thoughts? I am thinking of heading over to the store today to buy one of the more gentle formulas.

Last week I went to the doctors to get a whooping cough vaccine and asked him about this wrist pain I have been having. Turns out I have tendonitis in both wrists. This started while I was pregnant and has gotten worse since the boys were born. It is called DeQuervain's tenosynovitis and is often seen in new mothers. Who woulda thought? Now I have to go to an Orthopedic hand doctor and most likely get cortisone shots.

It's so funny during my day I come up with all these topics to blog about, but then when I actually get a minute to blog I blank on the topics. I am going to start writing them down, but for now I am off to take both boys out in public by myself for the first time. Going to see if a new formula helps Noah bug, but please please share your thoughts and stories.

Our Trip to the Pumpkin Patch

Our Little Pumpkins