I have been caught stunned lately. Many of my comments have been calling me Mom/Mama/Mommy.... hummmm. Are they really referring to me? Am I really a Mom? Up until now I have only been a "real" Mommy to creatures with fur. How did the one thing I wanted so badly finally happen?
At what point am I considered a Mom? The day I got pregnant? The day the boys reached viability? Maybe not until they are born? How does one determine when this magic name comes into play?
I got a very sweet call from my Dad last night. One of those calls that just sort of makes you want to burst out into tears. He said that he was having dinner and "we" crossed his mind. The FOUR of us crossed his mind and he had to call and tell us how proud and happy he was. You could hear it in his voice, he is just bursting with pride. And no he wasn't just proud because of the boys or because of how far we have come to have the boys, but more just for who Gabe and I are and what we have achieved in life. It was very sweet and made me feel accomplished, although my biggest accomplishment yesterday was creating an ipod playlist for the baby shower. I may not be gifted with a talent that I can share with the world, or have some fancy high paying job, but we are good hard working people. Infertility brought us over $30,000 in debt. My Dad paid off $1,500 of that before IVF #3, and at this point we only left with four more monthly payments. I began working at the age of 15, started taking college courses at night after school at 16, moved out at 19, and owned a home at 22. For things like this, our marriage, and the boys my Dad is proud.
Laptop fixed... it was just the charger! My friends are back.
I posted on FF yesterday in the October board, which I haven't done in awhile. It was amazing to see how many of them had been following me via blog. Which leads me to wonder how many people are actually reading? Who is just lurking? I am really curious. Come out come out where ever you are and drop me a comment.
I better get moving and get in the shower. I have an OB appointment and I must admit that I am nervous. I am afraid that these contractions I have been having are changing my cervix. I am so afraid they will admit me to the hospital today. Please please say a little prayer. I really don't want to be admitted yet and I would really like to make it to my baby shower this Saturday.
*UPDATE* All is well!!!! Cervix is actually measuring a 1.4, so still stable and VERY closed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Baby shower here we come!!!!!! This OB was GREAT! Very thorough and took the time to answer questions and go over my chart. I passed my glucose test with flying colors and DO NOT have gestational diabetes. Thyroid levels are good and I guess my blood count is fantastic for carrying twins. How about that? I am now measuring 36 weeks pregnant and have gained 23 pounds (GULP). How in the world did that happen? This bedrest really makes the weight come on. The boys looked good and now we are about 98% sure we are going c-section. Both boys are still in the same positions and it is unlikely they will change positions now, not much room to move around. Oh and thank you all for commenting, I love to see who is lurking around.
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