So, anyone who knows me IRL (in real life) knows that I make little movies on my Mac. You know... little videos and pictures set to music. And again anyone who knows me IRL knows that I am really into Country Music, in particular Rascal Flatts. I listen to songs and envision what type of videos I would put that song to.

So back in August or September of 2008 while embarking on IVF #2 and coming off of my failed frozen embryo transfer, a song caught my attention. This song is meant to be a love song, but since the first time I heard it I knew it meant something different to me, it does have one verse that may not pertain all too much, but all in all I feel it describes how I will feel when I am holding my miracles in my arms. I honestly would relive all the tears and go back to the days when my heart was aching to make my dreams come true.

I dreamt about the day I would actually have pictures and video to put to this song. I had my days when this song came on the radio and I couldn't bear to listen and even now when it comes on it brings me to tears. I imagine what photos I might put to the song and I envision adding pictures of our journey along the way and pictures of myself and Gabe holding our children.

I am finding it VERY hard to drop the ultrasound and belly pictures in a folder titled Here Video, but I am going to do it, although scared. In October I hope to be posting a video called Here featuring our little pumpkins.


There's a place
I've been lookin' for
That took me in and out of buildings
Behind windows, walls and doors
And I thought I found it
Couple times, even settled down
And I'd hang around just long enough
To find my way back out
I know now the place that I was trying to reach
Was you, right here in front of me

And I wouldn't change a thing
I'd walk right back through the rain
Back to every broken heart
On the day that it was breakin'
And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here

It's amazing what I let my heart go through
To get me where it got me
In this moment here with you
And it passed me by
God knows how many times
I was so caught up in holding
What I never thought I'd find
I know now, there's a million roads
I had to take
To get me in your arms this way

Repeat Chorus

In a love I never thought I'd get to get to here
And if that's the road
God made me take to be with you

Repeat Chorus

And I'd relive all the years
And be thankful for the tears
I've cried with every stumbled step
That led to you and got me here, right here
Oh, baby-OooOh, got me here


Boo said...

That made me cry. The song I think about when I think of my little boy arriving is George Strait's "I Saw God Today". If I knew how to make a video, I'd be making one in May.

Anonymous said...

I love you Tiffany!! Love MOM

Hoping for our own Peanut said...

okay, this is just weird. i, too love country music, including rascal flatts. i was in the car yesterday and heard this song and thought how i should do a post on it. i would go through every injection, appointment and relive every tear to be HERE..pregnant.

great minds think alike, perhaps. :)

Madsen Family said...

thanks for making me cry! that was great. what a perfect song. so happy to hear all is going well.