Baby Three

Baby Three is doing well. We got the honor of seeing the blueberry one more time on Monday. The little heart was thumping away at 148. Measurements are catching up, baby was measuring 7w3d so we go a revised due date of September 2nd. So it seems that Fridays will be my weekly increase days. I will be EIGHT weeks on Friday.

As for the Mommy, the belly is popping and the sweet cravings are kicking in. The sickness is VERY rare, and mostly just adversions to foods and smells. When you ask Aaden where the baby is, he will pull down your shirt and point to your boobies, hummm. Those are NOT the baby honey. We think it might be because one of their babysitters has a two month old baby which she breastfeeds, so maybe he connects those to the baby. Who knows? For now it is super funny, we have been correcting him so sometimes he gets it right. Any girl vibes you can spare, send them this way people!

Have I mentioned how truly blessed we are? Not a day goes by that I don't think about it, feel guilty, and hurt for you ladies still struggling. My heart aches for you, but please remember to never ever give up. Good things come to those who wait.

The Tum Tum

Today I am feeling a little green. The boys and I went grocery shopping, the smells in that place were turning my tummy. I was able to get everything on our list and snagged a two litter of cream soda and some gummy worms for me, those two things are the ONLY things that didn't turn the tum tum in the whole store. Upon leaving the store I was SO thirsty. The cream soda was not cold so I stopped through a drive thru and ordered a large strawberry soda... uh can we say YUM! The soda was gone before I got home. Now all I can think about is strawberry soda as I sit here munching on gummy worms.

Christmas Morning (Short Version)

Christmas Morning (Full Version)

My Beauties and a Heart

Yup that's right. We went in for a quick u/s yesterday. We were not scheduled for one for another couple weeks, but on Friday my betas didn't double. They had a doubling time of 60 hours and went up 71%, which we all know is just fine as did the doc, but just to put every ones mind at ease he snuck us in yesterday. There it was, a beautiful little flicker. I am still measuring behind (now 6 days instead of 7), so he will most likely be changing how far along I am. Taking me from 7 weeks back to 6 and changing due date to the very beginning of September.

No post would be complete without some pics of our beauties. These guys are changing and learning so much. They learn new words almost daily and love to mimic things I say. They can now take their plates to the sink, which I might want to re-think because the other night we found a hot wheels car in the garbage disposal. They are OBSESSED with trains. Aaden knows where the trains are kept and points at them and yells "toot toot!" It's all about trains!

They also can now show and tell me when they are hungry or thirsty, which is great, but that Noah Bear is always wanting "cra-aacker!" Oh how they melt my heart.

The DH is starting to get really excited about B3, it's amazing how something you weren't really ready for now feels like the best thing ever. He is so cute talking to baby and talking about changes we will make to make things easier for the Mama and the transition easy on the boys. He has really been stepping up more and helping me out as the exhaustion is starting to set in. I truly love that man.

Christmas Time

Thank You

Thank you all for your good thoughts and prayers, it worked!

BETA HCG DOUBLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Knots

I have knots in my stomach, I can't sleep, can't eat, and can't stop thinking. How could one little number carry so much value? Today is a make it or break it. If Beta HCG comes back more than double, we get to breathe a sigh of relief then go back for ultrasound #2 in two weeks, if not... we are sent on a new roller coaster. One in which is never fun, one in which we must either wait it out in stress and then proceed with meds or surgery. One in which no one ever wants to be faced with, and for us it will be our third time.

Today I am preparing myself for the roller coaster, today I am being pessimistic, because in my fertility world that is what works, and in my wold that is normally how the cards fall. Who gets pregnant on their own after 5 years of struggle and 3 IVFs?

How can I already feel so much for this little creature? How can a creature, which the pure thought of sent me to tears of fear one week ago NOW be someone whom I can't wait to meet and whom I feel is the completion to our family?

The boys are sleeping and I am off work today, after they have breakfast we will venture out. I plan to walk to the lab as the in and out of the car and in and out of the stroller seems silly when the lab is only about a 10 minute walk. We should have results back after lunch, and we will go from there.

No matter what happens I have to remember that I am already blessed, I have two of the most handsome, amazing little boys any Mom can ask for and if those are the only children we are ever blessed with, that is OKAY because I am thrilled to be their Mommy. I am honored to be their Mommy and we hit the jackpot with them. Even still we would love your good thoughts and prayers today for B3.

I'm Back

I'm back from the Docs and not sure what I am feeling. I am relieved that we saw something, but still VERY nervous. I am 6 weeks today, but measuring a bit behind. I of course was worried, but the doctor assured me that he wasn't. He thinks I probably just ovulated late. He is having me repeat my bloodwork tomorrow to be sure we are doubling. Please please please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

B-3's first photo:

BIG NEWS!

That's right, I have some big news! HUGE news, amazing news, a miracle, and a blessing.

I have kept it quiet for one week now and can no longer hold it in, I would have told you all sooner, but because of people IRL I had to keep it quiet, but NOW I just can't keep it in.

I AM PREGNANT!

Yes, sex does = pregnancy.

A week ago, I was NOT crying tears of joy. This is NOT something we planned to happen SO soon, now fast forward one week later and I am in love with this little blessing and wouldn't have it any other way.

So, here's the thing. Tomorrow I have my first ultrasound, I "think" I will be just barely 6 weeks. So, I am not expecting to see the heartbeat, but just hoping all is well. So here is where you guys come in... with Noah and Aaden so many prayers were said by you all, now here we are again asking you all to say just a quick pray for Baby #3 (B3). I am SO nervous because we all know that the only pregnancy I have carried to term was an IVF pregnancy.

How did this happen? Good question. In mid September I took my last BCP. I figured the boys were a year so we would try for a year on our own and then when they turned two we would start the process of using our frozen embryos. I had a period in October and then again sometime around Thanksgiving and then... Christmas came and I realized my period didn't. I quickly took a test and almost fell over when I saw the two lines. I cried, but not happy tears. After a few days of worry, the worry turned to joy and now here we are.

I worry for my boys, I worry for bedrest, I worry for financial reasons, I worry for my career, but most of all I worry for the health of this baby that I didn't realize would make me smile from ear to ear.

So, tomorrow is our first big hurdle. We hope to see all the normal things you would see at just barely 6 weeks. Next hurdle would be in February when the cerclage would be placed. My doctor doesn't anticipate bedrest with a singleton, so that would be another hurdle to cross. Financially we are discussing selling my car, and maybe moving to a smaller less expensive rental, which isn't ideal, but OH WELL!

We are blessed and I pray constantly for the health of this little blessing, I cannot wait to be a Mama to three, and I cannot wait for N&A to be Big Brothers.