5.14.2012

Mail that Makes Your Heart Skip a Beat

I knew this day would come and I kept telling myself that after Hudson we would no longer keep our five frozen babies.  But WHY is it so hard?

Why did I suddenly in vision myself pregnant with a sweet baby girl?  How can one bill make your heart skip a beat?

This is by far going to be one of the hardest decisions in my life, we worked SO hard for those embryos.  They are MINE they would probably hold our longed for baby girl.  But yet financially and to keep my sanity we will most likely not be storing our embryos.

Never did I imagine saying that out loud could make me fall to the floor in tears.  The nurse is supposed to call me back in the next hour to tell me how to proceed.  So sad, so very sad today.


5 comments:

happymomof2 said...

((hugs)) Thinking of you and praying for peace for you with your decision.

Christina said...

I imagine that is tough...lots of hugs and love to you guys. <3

Brenda said...

I'm so sorry. This has got to be incredibly tough. I hope that you find some peace.

Corey said...

praying for you and that the answer will come. sending hugs.

Kami said...

I went through the same thing. It's hard to let them go. You need to really think about this because things are going to be easier when the boys get a little older. You may want to really try for the little girl. They can do PGD and see if your embryos have a girl in there. :) Good luck mama!

Kami