Fall

So, Gabe and I were listening to this song together the other night and we decided that the words reflected what he has been feeling lately towards me. I thought I would share.

Fall
By: Clay Walker

oh look there you go again
puttin on that smile again
even though i know you've had a bad day
doin this doin that
always puttin yourself last
a whole lotta give and not enough take

but you can only be strong so long before you break
so..

fall
go on and fall apart
fall into these arms of mine
i'll catch you
everytime you fall
go on and lose it all
every doubt
every fear
every worry
every tear
i'm right here
baby fall

forget about the world tonight
all thats wrong and all thats right
lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away
and if you wanna let go it's okay

fall
go on and fall apart
fall into these arms of mine
i'll catch you
everytime you fall
go on and lose it all
every doubt
every fear
every worry
every tear
i'm right here
baby fall

hold on
hold on
hold onto me

Gotta Love Him

So after a week of sleepless nights, not much eating, a bit of depression, and a lot of tears. I told Gabe I wanted to take a long break and that I wasn't strong enough to go on another ride just yet.

God bless him for pulling me up. He texted me "You are strong enough! We aren't stopping until we have a baby in our arms. Don't get discouraged, I love you." He is right.... I can do this, we have come so far and I will do it as long as he is next to me because the end result is priceless.

I have also decided to be more optimistic about the frozen transfer... again I say that no matter how excited or optimistic I am... bad news is bad news either way, so I think I am going to let myself be hopeful. I have been reading about somethings that might help, so I will try them all... ANYTHING IS WORTH A SHOT.

Avoid stress, pray my heart out, no low or fat free milk products, no caffeine, no alcohol, Whey protein shakes twice a day, eat meals high in protein and low in carbs, prenatal vitamins, folic acid, iron supplements, acupuncture twice a week, baby aspirin daily, keep my feet warm at ALL times, lots of pineapple with the core, no lotions, perfumes, or strong smells, Egg McMuffin sandwich the day of transfer (something to do with the grease and the egg helping implantation)
STRICT BEDREST, think positive, no doggies or kitties jumping on my belly, avoid sneezing and coughing, no stairs, and no lifting of anything over 5 lbs.

Some of this may seem a little crazy, and most of this I did in March, but it can't hurt to try it all in May.

25 Years Later

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