What the Heck?

I posted a nice long Mother's Day post yesterday full of details and pictures and it's gone! I can see it on my phone, but not on the computer. I know blogger was having issues yesterday afternoon, as I could not log in. Hopefully it shows up soon.

Guess what??? VIABILTY!!!!!!!!!! 24 weeks today! Baby H seems to be doing well.

I am having some issues, but both my OB nad GP don't seem too concerned so I am playing it by ear. Started with a horrible headache a couple nights ago and I thought nothing of it. Then yesterday at work I got this vision episode where things where blurry, and I saw spots and stars. I had this a couple times before, but always blew it off. This time I mentioned it to a co-worker and she thought it sounded of concern. After a call to the OB they thought it sounded like an ocular migraine, which I guess is a migraine without the pain that effects the vision. So an hour later the vision thing went away and I carried on. Then last night the headache from Hell came back. This morning the dizziness and lightheadedness came on. So on my way to work I stopped to check my blood pressure at the pharmacy it was 110/64, which seemed a bit low. So I called the GP and they agreed it was a bit low. They want me to drink lots of fluid and be sure to eat three balanced meals and snacks and check back with them on Monday. So that is where we are. I am okay, I just feel a touch "off." Hopefully things return to normal soon and it is no big deal.

Mother's Day

I used to dread Mother's Day and Sunday didn't go without me remembering the heartache I and others have or are facing to become Mothers. I laid in bed and smiled as I listened to Noah in the living room saying "elmo elmo." While Aaden said "where Mommy at?" over and over as the three guys in my life made me a spanish omelette and I sat in a quiet room feeling little Hudson kicking away. Moments like this seemed so far away just three Mother's day ago. Now I am living my dreams, and I couldn't help, but to pinch myself.

They brought me a yummy omlette in bed along with a homemade card and gift certificate to get a pedicure and have a little Mommy time afterwards.

I ended up moving the breakfast in bed out to the kitchen where the boys and I could eat together and then I was able to sneak away for a shower and to get ready for the day. While in the shower Daddy and Aaden went outside to pick a rose for me. He was very impatient and couldn't wait to give it to me so he ended up barging in on my shower with a nice little surprise.

Gabe surprised me by dressing the boys while I showered and I got bags ready for the day while he showered and we were off, but not without a sweet call from my Dad as well as the boy's God-Father wishing me a Happy Mother's Day.

We met up with my Mom, Step Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Aunt at Train Town. The boys were in love with the minature ride which stopped at a small petting zoo.

After Train Town My Mom and I exchanged gifts. She got me a little silver locket with N&A's picture in it and we headed over to the park for some play, a picnic, and a chance to feed the ducks. After play time we walked around for a bit, but the boys were just beat and in need of a nap. Noah fell asleep in the stroller, but poor Aaden, when he knows stuff is going on he just won't sleep. So we packed up and headed home. Aaden was asleep before we left the parking lot.

When we got home the boys were still sleepy, so they continued to nap back at home in their cribs, and VERY unlike me I chose to take the hour for myself. I laid down on the couch and watch an episode of Pregnant in Heels, and I must say I liked it.

The boys woke and we feed and bathed them and then I snuck away for a quick Trader Joe's trip. When I got back, the Honey whipped us up some seared scallops, spinach salad, and flat bread and we ate after the boys went down to bed.

After dinner Gabe said the other part of my present was a new maternity work outfit (I was on bedrest so early that I never really acquired a lot of work maternity clothes with the boys), which I am in DESPERATE need of, but just couldn't bring myself to spend the money on something I would only wear for another four months or so. So after he pushed for it for a minute I hopped on motherhood.com, and ordered a pair of capris and a shirt. I ended the evening heading to bed at 9 p.m. and watching Desperate Houswives in bed. All in all, a magical day and night.

Majorly Cute Kids and a Belly

I couldn't resist sharing these majorly cute kids with you along with a 23 week belly shot.

Next up a Mother's Day rundown.

If you get a minute, please say a little prayer for Erin over at Hoping for Our Own Peanut. My heart is aching for her as well as for Tammy over at Tammy's Journey. Today I remember just how blessed I am to have these three little miracles. I also question WHY and feel guilty for what I have been blessed with. Sometimes life just makes no sense. I would like to believe that there is a "plan" for everyone, but sometimes it really just makes no sense. Why must some of us go through so much heartache to become a Mother? And why was I spared heartache conceiving Hudson?

22 Down 17 To Go

How far along? 22 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: +14 lbs
Maternity clothes? Yes
Sleep: Better than average
Best moment this week: Knowing that baby and cervix are well
Movement: YES! LIKE CRAZY!
Food cravings: Anything with cinnamon or BANANA PEPPERS
Gender: ALL BOY!
Labor Signs: No
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: My energy
What I am looking forward to: Decorating baby boy's room
Weekly Wisdom: Love each of your children equally and cherish each and every moment, time moves much too fast.

Gifted

I have come to the conclusion that my sons are BRILLIANT! Yes, yes I sure think they are.

Noah he knows how to work it.. knows how to change the station on the TV when he doesn't like something, knows how to put a puzzle together, and how to say "please" and smile to get almost anything he wants. Not to mention a nice little vocab.

Aaden well that kid has an arm. He can can throw, kick, and putt like nobody's business. Tonight the T-Ball comes out for the first time. And the vocab on that kid is just insane. How does he even know some of these words, he is such a sponge. Keys, ball, ewwww, yucky, backpack, thank you, bite, yeah, yahoo, where did sissy go, daddy at work, bye bye Mama, thank you Noah, here you go Noah, love you, night night. I could go on and on. He seriously is one smart cookie.

Yes, yes our children are gifted. hehe.

Ultrasound Update

Baby H's ultrasound went well, although I must admit I was extremely disappointed. Not in the findings, but in the choice I made to have the ultrasound done in my OBs office. I knew better when I agreed to it. I had the option of having it done in the hospital or down at UCSF and for convenience I chose to just stay in town. BIG MISTAKE! Now don't get me wrong OBVIOUSLY most important was that baby looked healthy and all was well, however the supposed to be thorough ultrasound (Boys was 1.5 hours) lasted all of about 5 minutes. No finger or toe counting and NO cute pictures to go home with. Yes it is petty, but it was yet another thing that seemed to be missing from this pregnancy. Ah such it is. DH knowing I was upset mentioned that maybe in 10 weeks or so we could get a 3D ultrasound, which we probably normally wouldn't splurge for. But it seems a little splurge needs to be made on baby H. I still have a Christmas check I haven't cashed so maybe we could use that.

Now onto the deets: Blood pressure was good, weight good at +13 Lbs. My cervix was measuring at FOUR! Can you believe that? Average is 3.5 and last visit was 3.2. I still can't believe that. As of now if looks like I may have no bedrest and still I have NO restrictions on running around like a crazy woman chasing after two munchkins. Hudson's weight was around 1 lb. 1 oz. and he was measuring at 22 weeks. Oh and yes he was still a boy, not that I really thought it would change. All in all the appointment news was fantastic, the experience not so much. I go back in 6 weeks for a HB check, cervix check, and lab slips for the glucose test. I cannot believe we are only about 2 weeks from viability.

Being 100% sure of babies sex we will move forward on his room. His room is about 90% cleared out and playroom has been merged with boys room. Their room is now a Thomas the Train Theme.




We are pretty sure Hudson's room is going to be a cowboy theme. My Dad has offered to purchase him a furniture set (what a lifesaver) and we would only need to buy him a mattress (unless Mr. Rian goes to a big bed before August, hehe.)


If we do indeed go with the cowboy theme this is the bedding I am eyeing. My Mom has offered to purchase this for little man (again another lifesaver.)


Since I was give away happy we will need to borrow or buy some things, but thankfully we have a lot of clothes and friends who have given us more hand me downs. Not quite sure what I was thinking when I got rid of our bathtub, exersaucer, infant carseats, bassinet, and our highchairs. Thankfully I should be able to get a carseat back and borrow a bassinet and bathtub. Other than that we are pretty set minus some curtains and a large area rug we need for the room along with some basics i.e. socks, onsises, and jammies. Wow what a plus it is to have tons of blankies, a swing, some toys, a breastpump, bottles, a bouncer, and a ton of clothes still saved from the boys.

Things are becoming more real and VERY exciting!

Easter 2011

Today was one of those days I wish I could bottle up. Today was a great day, I am so very blessed. Today was one of those days where numerous times I smiled at my boys and my life and couldn't believe they were mine and no one was coming later in the day to pick them up. I am their Mommy, they belong to us and life is so good. I am happy to report I am feeling WAY better. As in 95% better, still worried for the future, but feeling WAY better and the panic attacks are gone. As my DH said "you are THE BEST Mommy ever!!!" So I am going to believe him and I believe that I am going to continue to be the best Mommy and be an amazing Mommy to all three of my boys. Tomorrow is our 20 week ultrasound, although yes I am 21.5 weeks. Feeling kicks like crazy and even a set of hiccups. Mr. H is growing growing as in my belly. I am SO excited to see him, although I am sorta kinda hoping that his penis fell off! Just saying.

Easter was great, we couldn't be everywhere we wanted to, which seems to happen almost every holiday. We decided to stay in town and have brunch at my Dad's and then lunch/dinner out at DH's Grandma's house. Thankfully we were able to have my Mom come out and join us at that event for N&A's FIRST EVER EASTER EGG HUNT.

We painted eggs over at my cousin's house on Friday, which was pretty fun letting them go crazy. They were spoiled as always getting THREE different Easter baskets. One from The Easter Bunny of course and another from my Mom and My Grandma. Baby H even got a basket from Grammy (My Mom) complete with a hat and sunglasses. I think this was little man's first gift.